Find Me

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I have said it before, and I am sure I will say it again; I love Fall!  The colors, the smells, the crisp air…I could go on and on and on!  I mean, I haven’t even mentioned Thanksgiving, or pumpkin, or mums, or how great it is to have a chai tea latte while watching football on a crisp Saturday morning.  See, I told you I can go on and on ♥

A couple of weeks ago, my hubby and I were talking about how the trees around us didn’t seem to be changing colors.  They were still pretty green, and I was getting antsy for the world to not only feel like Fall, but to look like it too!  Our backyard is gorgeous in the Fall.  We have the perfect mix of birch and maple trees, and they never cease to amaze me with the bright yellows, oranges, and reds they display.  This year the color change was taking forever!  Then, in the blink of an eye, it was here!  We woke up one Saturday morning and the trees were outstanding.

I wished I could just sit on my couch and take in the fabulous color.

All. Day. Long.

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One of our trees is exceptionally beautiful.  It sits just outside our family room window, and has the picture perfect blend of red, yellow, and orange.  When the sun shines in the morning, the rays catch it from behind and it looks as if it’s on fire.  It is gorgeous!  Fall beauty at its best.   The day went on, and we both admired the tree.  Each of us remarking how happy we were that it had finally changed.  How the light in the family room was completely different.  That is was even more cozy in our home because of this tree!  Mostly, just how absolutely blessed we were to have this display in our backyard!

Sunday morning, we came downstairs ready to leave for church, and needing to sneak another peak at the tree.  Both of us stood in the room completely still and in total shock….the tree was bare!  Overnight, it had dropped every single leaf from its branches.  It just stood there gray and empty.  The light in the family room had changed again, as the sun shone through the window, with no leaves to catch.  We couldn’t help but feel just a little bummed.  It happened so fast.  It was over even though it had just started.  I wanted to look at it more.  I know, I know, I sound kinda whiny…..but it really was that beautiful.

Then it was just DONE.

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How many times have you felt done?  Like you have given all you had to give?  Laid bare all that you are, and found yourself in a season that seems cold and empty, because you have done everything you know how to do?  I have definitely been there.  It can be lonely to look around and feel like you are spent.   Like your season has come and gone, and you are just standing empty.  Waiting for the next time you can be used….be beautiful….be seen.

Oh, Oh, Oh!

How much I want you to understand,

the time you spend waiting is NEVER wasted time!

See, that tree is gonna spend all Winter waiting.  In the waiting, it is going to draw nourishment.  It may look empty, but inside it is reaching deep into its roots and pulling up all it needs to survive.  Spring will bring rain and that tree will be refreshed.  It will bloom again and begin to fill up.  Summer sun will cause those buds to burst open and provide shade and shelter to world beneath it.  When THIS season comes again, and this tree is called upon to be seen again, to be beautiful once more, and to be used, it will give what it has stored up in a minute.  No hesitation.

Oh, that I would be found like that tree!  Wanting to give.  Willing to lay all that I have at the feet of Jesus.  Letting go of all that I have stored up.  At a minutes notice, with no second thoughts, I want to be found putting aside my goals and my desires to be used up for Him.  Giving my all, my very best, so I can be filled up with more of Him and less of me.

In every season.

Willing to be filled, so I can be emptied for His glory.

Just like the trees in the backyard.

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Be Still

This morning….

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The trees were covered in bright, sunny yellow and rich, fiery red leaves.  The sun was just starting to shine through the birch trees in my backyard.  The rain isn’t a full on steady downpour yet, it’s just a mist.  The kind that doesn’t fall from the sky, instead it just kind of hovers over the yard and in the trees.  A breeze blows through, not a burst, or a strong push of air, but a light and gentle almost whisper of a wind.  And with just that little push, those beautifully colored, bright, and sunny leaves leap from the trees and seem to float, almost stand still in mid-air, before they fall to the ground and decorate the wet, green grass below.

It was like I was standing in the middle of a work of art.  I was surrounded by quiet beauty, and the world seemed still.

I was still.

That paints quite the picture of peace and serenity.  However, I am only showing you what was in front of me.  I haven’t let you see what’s going on behind me.  Those words up there are hiding the background.  The background is a completely different scene…..

The dog is somewhere out in the woods (which is why I was outside on the deck), the kids want breakfast, and bags need to be packed for the school day ahead.  The bus is almost here and no one has brushed their teeth.  Oh, and the bagels are burning in the toaster; what a delightful smell!

Now, it’s like I am standing in the middle of a loud and chaotic mess.  I am surrounded by what could be called the exact opposite of quiet beauty.

For a moment,

again;

I am still.

And in this moment, this crazy, messy, hurried moment, I can’t help but be grateful.

I am grateful for all that this new season holds and all that the previous one brought to us.  I am thankful for busy schedules because they help me appreciate quiet moments.  I want to be still for just a little longer because these chaotic mornings will be over before I know it.  Pretty soon the falling leaves will turn to snowflakes, and Thanksgiving will be Christmas, and then another year will be starting.  I am grateful for THIS moment.  This beautiful, chaotic, we are going to miss the bus, hurry up and put your shoes on moment.

 

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I will choose happy this week because sometimes the loud, chaotic background is beautiful too.